Wednesday, August 17, 2022

Cry To Me. I am here.

 "He broke your heart; cry it out, girl. Cry to me as hard as you want to. Let the tears carry your sadness away. And I know you'll be fine tomorrow."

-Belle Aronson

Life is hard as we know. 

Sometimes things didn't go as you expected.

And I know today you have a bad day.

I just wanted to let you know that I am here.

Any time you want to talk or cry on my shoulder, I am here.

I know you are hurting when someone you love has left you.

Don't hurt yourself; don't let the pain ruin your life.

You are more than your pain; you deserve better!

Don't you feel like

Cry to me;I am here.

Cry as hard as you want to.

And don't forget, you can always start again on a new day.

-Belle Aronson

Sunday, August 14, 2022

How to get over someone, or some thing

"In life, there are some things we might never really get over.
Sometimes the best we can do is just get through. But that's okay. There's still a lot of beauty to find on the other side."

Someone said," Forgive but Never Forget."I agree with him; I still remember the painful experiences that I had undergone. 

I had been through several breakups that I didn't think I could bear. I felt like history kept repeating itself; I would blame my boyfriend and hold grudges. I hated him that he hurt me. 

I was hurt because I thought I had given him my all, but he treated me like an option, a backup plan. I kept expecting that he would change someday, but it never happened. 

I pondered why I had to go through the same situation repeatedly; maybe something was wrong with me. I then finally figured it out. 

I realized that I couldn't change others, and I couldn't control them either, but what I could do was how I chose to react to what happened.

I had to admit that I could not forget my painful experiences, but I let them go and moved on. I couldn't get over it, but I got through.

Wednesday, July 27, 2022

I am Thankful For The Storm in My Life

 "When you come out of the storm, you won't be the same person who walked in. That's what this storm is all about"
-Haruki Murakami

Hello, everyone. First, I would like to say sorry that I haven't written a post for a while. I am back and will do my best to post as often as possible.

Whenever I feel down or discouraged, I will look for inspiring words to motivate myself, and I have found this one that inspires me. In retrospect, I am thankful for the storm in my life.

When I went through the most challenging test in my life, relationship and financial failures simultaneously. I felt like my life was falling apart; I could not see any solutions. I had let myself wallow in sadness for months. I cried myself to sleep every night. 

I lived in Bangkok, Thailand. One day, when I was driving to work. There was a lot of traffic, and I got stuck; I observed a crowded, non-air-condition public bus stop next to my car; several people stood because all the seats were occupied. I was thinking how terrible there is that people have to stand, crowding each other on the non-air-condition bus. 

 Then after traffic started moving, I drove and stopped at the intersection due to red light; a little girl who looked like she was 9 or 10 years old knocked on my car window. She asked if I wanted to buy fresh flower garland. I felt so bad for her that she was very young but was put to do that job.

On that day, there came a time when I had an epiphany. I thought how fortunate I was; I had a car, a good job, and a roof over my head while many people lived in ghettos; some even lived under a bridge. Some had to beg for money and food to survive day by day.

I realized that I was not the only one in the world who had been through a tough time. When my perspective changed, I could see a new way to look at my problems. When I changed the way to looked at things, the things I looked at changed.

I fixed my financial problems by negotiating with my bank; I had credit card debt, and I paid them the amount I could afford. I could do that because I accepted a new job that paid me better than the previous one. It was a challenging job, but I took it anyway.  

I could finally fix my financial problem, but my relationship with my boyfriend ended; he kept cheating on me repeatedly, and I could not let it happen to me anymore. I decided to move on. It hurt, but I knew I would finally get over him. 

When I look back on my life, I do appreciate all difficulties that I have been through. You have never known how strong you are until being strong is your only choice. And when you come out of the storm, you are not the same person who walked in because you are much stronger. And storm does not break you, but it makes you. I am thankful for the storm in my life.